FwB Series: 4- past

The New Girlfriend

When we last left the story of John, he and I had been FwBs from about October to about Aprilish (2008). At this point, that spring, things were beginning to slow down. For like a couple of weeks he wasn't answering my calls and ignoring my texts. I thought it was weird. Then one night I was hanging out with one of our mutual friends who told me John was on a date that night. I was a little perturbed. Not so much that he had found someone else put that he had just left me hanging.

I am glad our friend told me he was dating someone b/c the next night we were all at the bar with friends. And if I hadn't known he was dating someone else I would have been all touchy feely with him like normal. That would have bben really bad b/c it turns out his new girlfriend was a waitress at our favorite bar.

He only dated her for like a month or so. Then she stopped answering his phone calls and avoiding him. And thats how John got a new girlfriend and how his new girlfriend broke up with.

Then of course he wanted to come back to me. I wasn't so quick to take him back though. I was a little upset that he never told me about his new girlfriend and I had to find out from our friend. Not only that but the whole time they were dating he pretending I didn't exist. We have the same group of friends so we would be together a lot. He wouldn't talk to me or look at me or anything. We were friends. But he pretended we weren't.

One night we were messing around on the couch and I stopped it to tell him all this. He was so apologetic about everything. I don't know how sorry he really was or if he was just willing to say anything to get me back into bed. We got into a little argument and I told him I would let him know. Of course, the horny bitch that I am, went back to him as FwBs. This would continue for a few more months. Then I would tell him for the first time that I had realized that I had feelings for him.

To be continued..

Always- LSG

FwB Series: 3-past

So the story begins...
I met John over two years ago. It was like February. We met at bar through mutual friends. After the bar a bunch of us went over to one of the guy's house. Once there John and I sat out on the porch talking and smoking. We were talking and he started to basically tell me my own philosophy on religion, which is another post. Not many ppl see religion the way I do so I was amazed, impressed and intrigued. He definately began to reel me in. I could tell he was into me and wanted to go home with me, but at the time I had a boyfriend. He and I soon broke up with in a couple of weeks, for totally different reasons. That's a pretty good story too.

I didn't see him again til the summer. It was at a house party of some guys we both knew. We spent the entire party with eachother....making out. I eventually had to go home and he walked me to my car. He continued to kiss me. He didn't want me to leave or at least he wanted to go home with me. I wouldn't let him. It was still too early. Later that week we hung out together. He did come home with me that night and we did the deed. It was good and I wanted to see him again.

We tried to start dating and hanging out but things just didn't seem to work. He had a problem answering his phone and making plans. I have since learned he hasn't really been in a lot of relationships, especially ones that lasted more than a month or more. I finally got fed up when I called him one night to hang out. He said he would call me later and we would meet up. He called me at like 3 in the morning and was totally fucked up. He just wanted to come over and have sex with me. I was so angry. That's when we stopped seeing eachother the first time.

That fall when we were all hanging out at a friends house he was definately making it clear to me that he wanted me in the bedroom. I was horny too so I said whatever and we went to my apartment. I didn't think it was a big deal. It would be one night and not a big deal I mean we had done it before.

A month later I was out of town at my grandparents' house when I got a text form him that night. It was his birthday and he wanted birthday sex. I told him I was out of town but I would call him when I was back in town. Thus began our time as friends with benefits. This would last until late the next spring. To be continued...

Always- LSG

I Did It!!

I officially graduated from college yesterday and it feels absolutely amazing. It was so great to sleep in today and not have to worry about having to get up and write papers or study. I feel so free, especially since this past finals week has felt like a total blur to me. This summer I will spend doing nothing. I'll work like three days a week and the rest of the time is all mine because in August I will get my ass kicked when Law School starts. Also I am so excited to start reading for FUN!! I love to read and it is so hard when I have to read books for school all the time. I already have a pile of books I want to read this summer. If you have any more suggestions let me know. I hope everyone has a great summer. We'll keep in touch. One of the things I can do this summer is blog more.

Always- LSG

FwB Series: 2-Current

I seem to be constantly messing things up with John. Well not really messing them up, more like making it more awkward. I just can't help myself. He makes me so crazy. I want him so bad. After almost two years of being FwBs how could this not happen? We have tried the dating thing a couple of times and it just didn't work. And when we are together everyone assumes that we are probably more than just FwB. He acts mroe than that when we are together. And we are friends. We are great friends. I can't imagine what it would be like if he just wasn't there anymore.

So last Saturday I went to the bar with some friends and he was there too. When we go out we sit together. We hold hands and tell eachother secrets. We even give each other little kisses. Sometimes he comes on too strong in public and I have to push him back. I thought maybe it all meant more than jsut what we are. Others have told me that he is just marking his territory out in public so other know that I am taken for the evening.

Later that night we were lying in bed and I asked him why we aren't together. He said it was because we don't work together. I try to tell him how I feel and how we have been like this for so long. he says "we are just friends with benefits." Yeah, that hurt. Am I just living in my own world. He says he thinks I can't be happy staying right how we are. I don't know what to think anymore. He acts like it's more and then suddenly it's nothing. The thing is he isn't dating anyone else and he certainly isn't sleeping with anyone else. I am the only one in his life like me. Sometimes I think I could fall in love with him. He is more than just sex to me. He is someone I can have a real intelligent conversation with and I can't say that about a lot of my friends. He is probably smarter than most of the people we hang out with. He makes me laugh. He makes me smile. I just want to be around him. Half the time I don't even want to have sex with him. I just want to see him and be in his company. I just keep thinking one day he will tell me he feels the same way. And I am not crazy he has told me his feelings before, days after I told him I first had feelings for him. But that is another story.

Always- LSG

The Friend with Benefits Series: 1

When you are a single a friend with benefits can be a marvelous thing. I have had the same FwB for almost two years now. We will call him John. John is, of course, single and 28, and usually works out great.
This series of blogs will consist of two types: Past and Present. Past blogs will continue the ongoing narrative of the course of John and I's relationship, if I can call it that. For a FwB it sure is a lot more complicated that it should be. Present blogs will let you know what is currently going on with John and I.

Some FwBs are just that. They are friends that show up when you need them and leave when you type together has been completed. John and I are different though. Our relationship has been through a lot more than just sex. Currently we do both have feelings for eachother, but are better keeping things the way they are. We have tried the dating thing before and it just doesn't work for us. He isn't good at being a boyfriend, and I want more than he is willing to give me. We are friends. He is probably one of my best guy friends. When we get together, it is always more than just sex. We hang out, we talk, we have fun, we enjoy eachother as humans and not just sex objects. Sometimes I want more from him that just a FwB, but I know that things are good how they are now. I do care deeply about him and I know he cares about me. I don't know if anything will happen to us in the end. But for now I am just happy he is in my life, that we get to share in friendship and a sexual relationship both.

For the record John and I do have rules. We don't sleep with other people when our FwB relationship is on. It is just safer that way. We have in the past been off and were with other people during those times. We can date other people, but when that becomes physical we usually go into an off state. We always seem to return to an on state, however. We just can't seem to stay away from eachother.

Always- LSG